One of the most beautiful songs ever written. The lyrics are amazing, so beautiful. I don't know what the song is about. Maybe it's about how life can end, about our "endless numbered days", the name of the album. Maybe it's about lost love.
Passing Afternoon - Iron and Wine
There are times that walk from you Like some passing afternoon Summer warmed the open window of her honeymoon And she chose a yard to burn But the ground remembers her Wooden spoons, her children stir her Bougainvillea blooms There are things that drift away Like our endless numbered days Autumn blew the quilt right off the perfect bed she made And she's chosen to believe In the hymns her mother sings Sunday pulls its children from their piles of fallen leaves There are sailing ships that pass All our bodies in the grass Springtime calls her children until she lets them go at last And she's chosen where to be Though she's lost her wedding ring Somewhere near her misplaced jar of Bougainvillea seeds There are things we can't recall Blind as night that finds us all Winter tucks her children in, her fragile china dolls But my hands remember hers Rolling around the shaded ferns Naked arms, her secrets still like songs I'd never learned There are names across the sea Only now I do believe Sometimes, with the window closed, she'll sit and think of me But she'll mend his tattered clothes And they'll kiss as if they know A baby sleeps in all our bones, so scared to be alone
I don't think I've ever hated uni as much as I do this semester and it's driving me into a depression. And the thing is, I don't even know why I'm hating it so much.
Maybe it's my crappy schedule, there's traffic when I arrive and AWFUL traffic when I leave. I now understand why cab drivers are such assholes. Ba3dein to have Java at 3.30? 7aram 3aleikom.
Or maybe it's because I'm not liking the subjects I'm taking. I don't remember liking a subject so much, but I don't know, now I'm realizing that I don't wanna be doing, whatever it is the hell I'm studying, for the rest of my life.
Aaaaah kollo 3a ba3do garaf.
And I tried starting this week with a positive attitude, which lasted what 15 minutes?
I think I'm having some sort of quarter-life crisis.
The card game, that is. The point is to get rid of all your cards by placing one or more cards of a certain determined number. For example, player 1 has to put down an ace, player 2 a two, and so on. If you don't have the number you're supposed to play, or wish to pass more cards, you lie. Hence the name "Bullshit". If a player accuses you of lying he yells out "Bullshit", and upon opening the cards you either collect all the cards at the table if you were lying, or if you were in fact honest, the accuser gets the cards.
I personally suck at this game. If I win, it's only because I lucked out and had the numbers I was supposed to play. I think this game is a pretty good indicator of whether people have the ability to "bullshit" people or not.
I'm not talking about lying. I think I can lie. But I can't pretend to like someone if I really don't. It always shows up on my face. Other people have a rather impressive ability to make people think they like them, while secretly hating them. I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing, let's face it, bullshitting is an important skill.
Not for me though. I can't pretend to be another person.
Don't have much to say but I felt like posting something..
So I'm on a break now till next Sunday, when my new semester starts. I'm not looking forward, because the schedule's not so great and all my courses are with the exact same people. Don't get me wrong, I like them, but a change would be nice, no? Plus I'm taking JAVA. I hate programming courses, I almost flunked the C course.
Students must finish 160 hours of training before leaving to Germany (which is next September for me) and I still have 80 hours to complete. I could've finished them this break but I didn't want to do anything, really.
I'm so lazy when it comes to getting stuff done. I don't know if I've always been like this, or if this whole attitude just developed since uni, but I'm always like "meh". I remember reading a post about knowing what you want to be and where you're going, and I realized I'm totally clueless. I have no idea what I want to be, I have no idea what I want to be doing, I'm basically just going with the flow. I mean I'm doing pretty good I think, my average is like 81 but what's the point if I don't know what to do with that? And what I'm supposed to have an epiphany if I don't know? And then you see people who studied one thing and are doing something completely irrelevant. I think I'm gonna end up like that. But whatever it is I end up doing, I want to be happy doing it. I'm just gonna keep quitting till I find something I like.
I started on this project with 7iber. They're receiving funding to hire 3 people to summarize posts from around the Jordanian blogosphere to be published in Alghad (yes, in Arabic). I'm loving it because it's really improving my Arabic language, I haven't written Arabic articles since God knows when. I also remembered how much I love translating. But so far, they haven't started publishing and yesterday we were told to stop writing till we get confirmation on when they'd start posting. Hope the whole thing will work out, because it'll be a serious bummer if it doesn't. I want a paycheck :(
House is one of my all-time favorite shows, it just keeps getting better by the season, and the video below is one of my favorite moments in the show. It's from season 5 [SPOILER ALERT], where House realizes that his hallucination, Amber who died in season 4, has not disappeared. It's so creepy, watch it.